and i desperately wanted to be ok. and mostly, i was.
but now? i'm absolutely drowning. i have no perception of emotion in or out of myself.
but meds? they absolutely scare me. they make me not so me... at least that's how i began to feel about them.
i just need to think that they just might be able to give me a chance to get better.
because school, work, and relationships are beginning to fail... that's when i know it's time to finally see someone again.
but seeing someone means i just might need to go on meds again. and i'm so terrified of not feeling...